Navigations are at the top.
i want to be independent too, but i can't when i don't have enough knowledge. so i look for help, but told to put more thought into it. being thrown back sometimes for not thinking enough, but sometimes being blamed for going ahead without checking. i feel like i'm treated like an idiot. maybe that's why i'm starting to act like one.
i always thought i was one who could withstand stress, not that hardy, but not that weak too. maybe i'm wrong.
Saturday, May 24, 2014
I guess it's the additional stress when ppl chase for stuff to be done, and when their tone is kind of sarcastic. Feels (or could be they really mean it) that effort is not appreciated. Yes i know there are sayings out there that we shld look at outcomes, the work that is done, rather than judge a person by whether they always leave work on time etc.. But when there are issues and things not so much within control, pls see my efforts in giving up my time, energy, sleep, money, friendship, and opportunities to rush it out. Yes i know i gave my promise that i'd rush it out for u, so i was the one who offered to give up all those things, so pls at least show ur trust in me. Don't chase at the last min, and in a sarcastic tone even more.
Sunday, May 18, 2014
how much longer can i last?