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songs these days have been making me think abt my life again... how i'm not satisfied with my life, how i want my life to be, how the lives of other ppl seem to be much more fulfilling than mine. but i shouldn't compare. i need to count my blessings, and i know how lucky i am. but i guess sometimes u just want more in life. if u are not after something more than what u have now, how do u improve? but then isn't that the saying of 知足常乐? hah the balance issue again. it's the balance between counting your blessings and knowing and going after what u want.
some songs just sound so peaceful/blissful, and happy (but not the cheerful kind, maybe more of hopeful?), or maybe with a tinge of regret but already laid it down and looking forward in life, yet never forgetting that regret. somehow makes me feel inferior. maybe cos i'm not exactly satisfied with my life now. i have wonderful friends, a lovely family, a job (though unstable and not earning much, but given the situation, i'm lucky enough to have a job) but i'm still unsatisfied? maybe cos i feel rather bored at times, but that's all it is to life isn't it? these are the important things in life. i have people i can rely on, trust and confide in when i need to. but what's that thing missing? haix, i'm a complicated person that i myself don't understand my string of thoughts. i can be such a conflicted person.
and just wondering, if my life was a song, what would it sound like?
maybe i should stop living in my world of songs and fiction and get real. i need some drama in my life.
oh wells it's prob just one of those periods of identity crisis, or just being emotional, or maybe simply just one of the symptoms of PMS.