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Sunday, July 14, 2013
Labels: thoughts
kinda regretted thinking too much, and maybe i should have been more direct, or at least hinted abit. instead of just holding back and being nice, cos i still valued the relationship.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Labels: thoughts
如果连我都觉得那么心寒，那他到底受的伤有多深？
原来不过如此而已
i may have said i understand (and yes i really do), but i still don't agree with the way it's handled.
Sunday, July 7, 2013
#nowplaying 煎熬
love the lyrics of this song. although they don't apply to my context currently, but still suits my current feelings. reminds me of that period in secondary 3, when i realised what makes me cry, or bring down that wall and break down.
so... i guess it's finally time for a talk, and i guess at least we got some things sorted out. but i'm sorry, it still doesn't change the opinion i have of him. still, thank you for initiating the talk, i never held anything against you. it's just him.
i'm not sure if things are going to be the same, but i guess it already wasn't since last year. there's still going to be many more changes, even more drastic changes. though ultimately it's for the better, i'm not sure how the process is going to be like. i just hope the damage can be minimised.
stay optimistic.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
songs these days have been making me think abt my life again... how i'm not satisfied with my life, how i want my life to be, how the lives of other ppl seem to be much more fulfilling than mine. but i shouldn't compare. i need to count my blessings, and i know how lucky i am. but i guess sometimes u just want more in life. if u are not after something more than what u have now, how do u improve? but then isn't that the saying of 知足常乐? hah the balance issue again. it's the balance between counting your blessings and knowing and going after what u want.
some songs just sound so peaceful/blissful, and happy (but not the cheerful kind, maybe more of hopeful?), or maybe with a tinge of regret but already laid it down and looking forward in life, yet never forgetting that regret. somehow makes me feel inferior. maybe cos i'm not exactly satisfied with my life now. i have wonderful friends, a lovely family, a job (though unstable and not earning much, but given the situation, i'm lucky enough to have a job) but i'm still unsatisfied? maybe cos i feel rather bored at times, but that's all it is to life isn't it? these are the important things in life. i have people i can rely on, trust and confide in when i need to. but what's that thing missing? haix, i'm a complicated person that i myself don't understand my string of thoughts. i can be such a conflicted person.
and just wondering, if my life was a song, what would it sound like?
maybe i should stop living in my world of songs and fiction and get real. i need some drama in my life.
oh wells it's prob just one of those periods of identity crisis, or just being emotional, or maybe simply just one of the symptoms of PMS.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
haha finally watched the movie 《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》. super touching. 应验了my previous post on the power of 'if'. but that's life. life wouldn't be so precious if we knew all the 'if's in life. (tho life could be better too, but we'll never know) i saw a comment somewhere that if they had got together in real life, this novel and movie would probably never exist, and we would never know about it. but then again, the last part of the movie was just what he wanted, or hoped would happen. if he had went back, they might or might not still be together. if...
Sunday, March 20, 2011
identity crisis??? haha.. maybe i've been thinking too much.. maybe i need to be more preoccupied so i won't think so much... am i such a simple person that I can't even think? sounds pathetic...
or maybe i'm just simply too dumb to think.. sounds worse.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Labels: thoughts
just had family bbq.. a once-in-a-blue-moon extended family gathering.. had fun just sitting ard in a circle ard the bbq pit chatting with my cousins... =) how often do we get to spend time like that? too bad it got disrupted by a lizard dropping on sean's feet.. interesting discussion too.. see how guys are all superficial... haha =p but anyways, time to get planning and maybe.. just maybe... a trip to the states? =p but... i hope it's not just for talk and hope it'll come true... =D
maybe it's the weather.. or the songs i've been listening these days.. in a more nostalgic or melancholy mood.. haha... i just want to be happy with the simple things in life... spending time with my friends and family... or just spend my time learning and doing the things i want to.. haha but looking at the more practical perspective of it, you need $$ for it too.. so it's back to the ugly side of life again...
p.s. it's dbsk's 7th anniversary today.. gg into the 8th year~~~