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my patience comes with terms and conditions.
Saturday, May 5, 2012
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memories are very important to me, but maybe i should start looking forward.....
Monday, April 23, 2012
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walking back on this night of beautiful lightning streaks across the sky, 我还在期待着一个童话故事吗？
Saturday, January 28, 2012
songs these days have been making me think abt my life again... how i'm not satisfied with my life, how i want my life to be, how the lives of other ppl seem to be much more fulfilling than mine. but i shouldn't compare. i need to count my blessings, and i know how lucky i am. but i guess sometimes u just want more in life. if u are not after something more than what u have now, how do u improve? but then isn't that the saying of 知足常乐? hah the balance issue again. it's the balance between counting your blessings and knowing and going after what u want.
some songs just sound so peaceful/blissful, and happy (but not the cheerful kind, maybe more of hopeful?), or maybe with a tinge of regret but already laid it down and looking forward in life, yet never forgetting that regret. somehow makes me feel inferior. maybe cos i'm not exactly satisfied with my life now. i have wonderful friends, a lovely family, a job (though unstable and not earning much, but given the situation, i'm lucky enough to have a job) but i'm still unsatisfied? maybe cos i feel rather bored at times, but that's all it is to life isn't it? these are the important things in life. i have people i can rely on, trust and confide in when i need to. but what's that thing missing? haix, i'm a complicated person that i myself don't understand my string of thoughts. i can be such a conflicted person.
and just wondering, if my life was a song, what would it sound like?
maybe i should stop living in my world of songs and fiction and get real. i need some drama in my life.
oh wells it's prob just one of those periods of identity crisis, or just being emotional, or maybe simply just one of the symptoms of PMS.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
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now playing 'if'. everytime i hear this song makes me think of all the different 'if's. if this had not happened, if that had happened, if i had done that, if it was like that, if it was back to those times.. if only if... the possibilities...
Saturday, July 23, 2011
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my entries are more like a tweet most of the time - short and sweet. and random. without elaboration. the longer ones are normal ones abt complaints and everyday life. what about the ones with my problems? maybe i still need to be more true to myself.. still unwillingly to admit my problems and feelings to even myself? or too lazy to even delve into the problems? or only capable of thinking to that bit of extent? or maybe cos i think there's no point in thinking so much... i'm probably still back at square one..
i think i'm still lost.....
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1:26 PMi'm... an isolated island.. ?
Saturday, July 16, 2011
life goes on...
3:09 PMyup it does.. unknowingly it's almost been 2 yrs? it was 1 yr last year.. time does fly... and everything just goes on as normal.. i wonder how long this is going to take... i just hope it's not forever.. there's no forever anyway isn't it? haha...
Saturday, June 18, 2011
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Friday, June 17, 2011
tired.. very...
12:56 PMso tired last nite that i just fell aslp hugging pon in bro's room at like 1230am alr.. then just got up and slogged to the room and slp, without even covering blankie... haix.. can't even stay up late alr... T_T
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
hah
12:26 PMhah my mood really gets better towards the wkend. in a way more relaxed and happier, and don't mind staying late. kinda ironic, haha dun mind staying late towards the wkend.. just cos it's the wkend. lol
Friday, April 22, 2011
ouch
12:19 AMI will train.. Until my feet gets used to heels. Even if it hurts and gets injured, scarred.. Each and every scar makes u stronger.. Haha... Just like how i'm mostly immune to bites at the back of my feet alr...
Saturday, April 9, 2011
yue jia
2:20 AMtaking on a new identity.....
Sunday, March 20, 2011
haix...
11:13 PMidentity crisis??? haha.. maybe i've been thinking too much.. maybe i need to be more preoccupied so i won't think so much... am i such a simple person that I can't even think? sounds pathetic...
or maybe i'm just simply too dumb to think.. sounds worse.
Monday, January 3, 2011
haha
8:30 PMmy fren said i was defiant. now i see that my watch is prob the same as me. it had stopped working, so i wanted to replace the battery and my dad helped me take it to a shop to change. surprisingly, when the person put the new battery in it, it still didn't work, then when they put the old battery in, it started running again. haha isn't my watch cute? haha
Saturday, October 30, 2010
haix.
2:41 PMbabies are so innocent and cute. wad happened to all of us? why did we become like this?